* Wednesday, October 05, 2005 *  
Well, it's been.... 8 months since I last wrote.
I am now living at my new home, with Glenn, and with Qanuk, our new puppy. I'll have to find a way to post pictures because she's really cute. I also have pictures from Costa Rica and Europe I'd like to post.

I'm also majoring in three Disciplines. It's taken a definate toll on me, mentally. I would love to just work a 9-5 job.

I think I've lost Archana as a friend. I just feel uncomfortable around her. I think she feels it, too. I don't think it's beyond salvation, though. OR at least I would tell myself that. Who knows what the future will bring.

I'm going to an Intelligent Design lecture tomorrow--a Philospoher (chair of the Phil dept) will be talking about whether it's comparable enough to be a competitor to evolutionary theory. (Damn Southern Baptists, idiotic brainwashed inbred dimwits....)

Glenn and I are definately working out of a rough patch, but everything we go through just makes us stronger. I hope it will continue this way, and that we can get to the bottom of the problem
posted by Andy* | 10:04 PM

* Wednesday, February 02, 2005 *  
Ahhhh life is good but hectic.
I'm hoping I'll be able to have a relaxing last three quarters, but it looks like I might want to go for a THIRD major. Might be nice.... But relaxing would also be nice. I've had a long four years. It would be like retiring... I'm hanging up my pocket protector! Or maybe not. We'll see.
I'm teaching a review session class, and I simply don't have the time to go over the text, so my inferiority sometimes shines through. To be honest, as long as I help them marginally, I don't care much. I'm exhausted.
Working my butt off so I can save up for Europe. Unfortunately, I can't put in too many hours because of classes.... But I'll have all of next quarter. I'm thinking of taking next quarter off again.
Glenn and I are planning on getting married summer of 2006. What else can I say but I'm looking forward to it? Makes me feel comfortable and warm-n-fuzzy. Not estatic like I always pictured; comfortable and warm-n-fuzzy is much better, though, because it lasts longer. I'm under the assumption, in fact, that the feeling will last a lifetime. :) Besides, this way I can finally get a puppy! heehee, kidding
posted by Andy* | 11:26 PM

* Monday, January 10, 2005 *  
Well, I'm still getting over the bronchitis, but it's pretty much over now. I don't get as winded anymore going around campus, but I still have to be careful.
So you know how Glenn and I didn't go to Bend, Ore.? It turns out it was for the best! Eileen wasn't going to bring her puppies after all, she was going to leave them at the doggie day care while she was away, but Roger (wittle Woger) had a cold, so Glenn took care of him all weekend, so I saw Roger a lot this weekend. He was a bad doggie, he chewed up one of the Price family's christmas ornaments. Glenn says it wasn't one of the sentimental ones, though, so it's okay; in fact, Roger may have been acting on his own sense of aesthetics because the ornament he chose was a horse standing on a sled, and of course you know that's just ridiculous, horses don't go sled-riding (especially not standing up), so he chewed off the sled.

posted by Andy* | 5:14 PM

* Monday, December 27, 2004 *  
Just came back from the emergency room. Tired.

Stupid asthma. Oh well. Could be worse.

My back hurts!, because of the effort of breathing. The doc thought he heard something funny with my left lung after my asthma had cleared up a bit more, so I went in for a chest X-ray. More extra limbs/fire-breathing/other superpowers to look forward to! :) But the X-ray was clear, so no worries.

It's kinda neat that as I was looking at the supplies in the cabinets, I knew what they were used for, from my physiology class. Speaking of which, I got an average GPA for Autumn quarter higher than a 3.5 so I guess I made dean's list again. :)

It's been a very busy holiday and next quarter will also be very busy. I hope I have two solid days of relaxing before the quarter starts. I have my textbooks and I'm really looking forward to my sociobiology class especially.
posted by Andy* | 8:47 PM

* Tuesday, December 14, 2004 *  
I find myself blogging, yet again, at the biology study center. That in itself is interesting--I loved the Geology department and their carefree atttude of acceptance and hated the Biology department and all the cutthroat premeds before this quarter; now I love the Bio dept (still hate premeds) and their challenging, professional atmosphere and I roll my eyes at the Geology Department and all their silly antics.... Well, nothing is so polar of course....

These days, when I think about paleontology, I think "how inconsequential". I think about animal behavior, and I think "how neat...." but I'm not even sticking with animal behavior. I can't stand the thought of commiting to something again and then realizing that I've again been wasting my time.

So, I've studied for my biology class a while now and I'm bored of studying. So I'm blogging. I've needed to blog for a while now, so much to talk about.

I've accepted Sean O'Donnell's offer to work for his lab, meaning I've also accepted his offer of sending me to Costa Rica. This is an unexpected turn in my life, though a nice surprise. I hope I just enjoy it. I'm already worrying. I'm dumb.

Glenn... Glenn Glenn Glenn. He has done nothing wrong but with a single phone call and an unexpected time I automatically assume that he doesn't want to see me! What idiocy (on my part)! I have to conciously reason with myself that he DOES want to see me, or he would have said "I don't want to see you today". But since he's never said that, I keep believing that if he doesn't want to see me until later in the day, he doesn't want to see me at all. So silly. (See above paragraph: "I'm dumb".) Obviously, if he says he can't see me later in the day, that means he's busy all day and that he at least wants to see me a little bit of the day rather than nothing at all. He's told me all of this, but I have a rather thick cranial plate. *knock knock* ...Ow.

The grades for my animal behavior class still haven't been posted. Dude! I took that final, like, a whole DAY ago!

Well the study center closes in 5 minutes. Damn! what am I supposed to do for the next 30 minutes before the bus comes so I can go to Bellevue?? (*little angel on shoulder*:Study! *little devil*:Bitch out the study center people and then sleep on their couch!)
Stay tuned.....
posted by Andy* | 4:38 PM

* Sunday, December 05, 2004 *  
THE BOMB TO END ALL BOMBS, dropped on Thai village.
posted by Andy* | 1:03 PM

* Friday, December 03, 2004 *  
I just finished talking a little bit with Prof. O'Donnell. I came to him with an e-mail the other day saying that I'm at the point in my life where I'm thinking of a career change. And he told me many things in only a few minutes. He was very excited and happy to speak with me. I have to thank him somehow some day. He told me that trying new things is probably better than being "streamlined" as I had put it. Grad school applicants that have tried a variety of things are prefered. I suppose it falls under the "well-rounded student" umbrella. I always thought that "well-roundedness" was a dumb thing to look for (what about "students like me" who already knew what they wanted??), but now I can see why professors would prefer students who took a little while to look at other possibilities. It's not that they're flighty--it's that they're all that much more likely to be dedicated to what they finally chose. Plus, they learn along the way. Hopefully I can be that way. I suppose it's like dating and personal commitment. Prof. O'Donnell compared chosing a career to marriage. I thought about Glenn. Of course he knows what he wants. It's because he's dated. He says that every relationship is different and that being with them didn't give him any more experience for how to interact with me. But I know he's wrong. Unfortunately, that's the only thing I know for sure, that he doesn't know. I know I'm ignorant about these kinds of things, and I always always wish I had dated before I found Glenn. It wasn't for lack of trying, just horrible luck with guys. I'll always curse those guys that never gave me a chance.

So what am I thinking? What do I think about Glenn? What do I think about my career? And, what about this grad school thing and taking a year off?

What I think about Glenn. If I were to go off and date (if that were even possible I don't know), all I would really accomplish is finally convincing myself that Glenn is the best for me. I know it now, but I crious by nature. So I would accomplish finally "REALLY" knowing. What does that mean, anyway. I would have also accomplished breaking up with him and I would have wasted all that time. I know it's true. Or am I trying to convince myself...? Of course, I can absolutely see myself messing up my relationship with Glenn to "go off and find myself" and I just sit there without a date for five years before I come crawling back.... (To the person I belong with in the first place....)

What I think about my career. I don't know. In fact, I'm enjoying not knowing right now. I can live life and take classes for myself, instead of for paleontology. It was all for paleontology. For the higher cause. Well, I learned that there is no higher cause than personal happiness, and if I no longer fit into a career choice, if I find myself shoving my soul into a certain direction, I may be successful, but I would not be happy.

That grad school thing. Hell, yeah, I'm going to grad school. I want to be a scientist of some kind, I know that at least. I think I'd wither and die if I weren't doing science. So grad school is a definite yes. But where? In what field? And, interstingly, when? I don't know the answers yet. "When" is a bit more focused; I'm almost certain now that I'll be taking a year off to work and find internships or research and/or visit grad schools and potential advisors.

Prof. O'Donnell also told me that taking a year off is probably to my advantage. He said it's all a matter of personal choice, of course, and that it's best to do things when you're ready to do them; he implied that if I'm even thinking about taking a year off, I probably need a recharge and I wouldn't be 100% ready for grad school anyway. This is my own extrapolation and he may not have meant this, but may have thought it were so if he thought about it a little while longer.


All of this really happened on Tuesday night. I've also got more news. I was talking with a Geology friend of mine in the comp lab on Wednesday. She was in Montana with me n Glenn and I got to ask her why there were always bad vibes towards Glenn. She said that there were just some things he said sometimes.... And she brought up the example with Brent. It made me so mad that the fact that Brent was a dick got Glenn into bad favor with the group. It wasn't fair. So I gave her a piece of my mind. I was as harsh as I could bring myself to be. But where I LOVE doing this to people is when I give them a piece of my mind and they thank me for it. I spy on people this way.... But the things I found out.... She said that "some people" (Glenn thinks this was code for my friend herself) "don't know why you n Glenn are dating"... I tried to find out why "people" thought this, and what I found out was absolutely unfair judgement. Maybe more on this later, maybe not. What exactly were the details that she told me are not important and I don't want to hurt anyone.

But I mean, what the hell?? I know why I'm dating Glenn. No one else is dating him (and no one else better ;) ) so they have no reason to have to know, and they should mind their own business. I can't believe this kind of behavior is still seen in people beyond 12 years old. Well, I know for a fact I will see it for the rest of my life because that's just human nature, but two points: one, I'm glad I see it as rarely as I do (the fact that this annoys me means that I'm not used to it; that means I rarely see it and that's good), but two, it was such a pity that this behavior DOMINATED the lifestyle in Montana. This was something I wasn't expecting. And it is also a pity that being so concerned with stupid things prevented people from knowing how cool Glenn is. I know how he feels, though. I've been through the same thing (a lot), and so has he, and that is people not giving us (as individuals in the past, I'm not talking about us as a couple) a second good look and giving us a chance. Not that he's necessarily secretive, but there's more to him than meets the eye, as happens with most of those who are of a deeper, more thoughtful nature.

My "friend" was trying to get the old Montana group together for bowling either this weekend or next. I asked her if I could bring Glenn, and that's how we got into the conversation I paraphrased above. Hmm, you know, I think I'm too busy to make bowling this time....

In other news, I'm beginning to plan my trip to Europe. I'm trying to convince my parents to meet us in Spain. My dad was under the assumption that he and I were going to Peru this summer (!!) while I had been planning it for some other summer.... Well, all this stuff has to be worked out, but we'll be talking it out this weekend a little. I'm so glad that things are starting to fall into place with that trip. It will be the trip of a lifetime, no matter how it goes.
posted by Andy* | 11:53 AM